our last song

it's been awhile or months since we last met,i'm not quite sure about the intervals in between,but to me,it seems like ages since the last-desperate-measure-skype chat to save our memories and relationship. but when you said goodbye,i've more or less sensed that you already have move on, moving on to another world and subsequently moving on without me

i still remember how it was like.how awkward it was for both of us.frantically searching for meaningless topics to fill the silence in between. how ironic it is where you used to be the only one i was comfortable sitting in silence with.and i admit i have had doubts when you said you cared and you missed how things were for us,i wonder how true the extend could it be when you did nothing to justify your words. to me, words are nothing but mere connection of alphabets.

i blamed it on the distance,i blamed it on the culture.i blamed myself for not doing what it had to be done,and a year later i blamed you.

but occasionally, memories of us attack me out of nowhere. how sad it is that i used to write about 'us',and now i only write about 'me'.is true that life moves on, but it never occur to me that we would be moving on without each other.and is true that people do grow,but i never thought you would outgrow me.not this fast,not this way.

i hope you found your way in the fancy city,i hope you sought the freedom that you always wanted,i hope you are living the life you always imagined....i hope all of this for you....



without me.....