someone gimme a back door

i'm never the girl who has it all,
the label,the right circle,the clinch,the looks
with you, i finally have it

i carefully torn down the walls i built around
and built you up
putting you high up
on an unreasonable high pedestal
you never belonged

i've been building this for too long
so much so that taking it down
is like breaking a habit

but down you go now
cause you starting to wear me down
the setting of meet-ups
the renewal of our relationship
it never seems to work
i refuse to indulge my vices
over someone like you

i wanna write about epics
i don't wanna write about
ifs' and maybes'
i wish i could disintegrate this all
in a pronoun