pointing fingers to blame

flipping over old photographs
memories tinted in my mind
believe me
i want to shove them into that box
lock it up
i want to pretend,to forget
i want forever in a few moments
but if there's one thing you taught me
is all ephemeral
transient
be scared of trusting,wanting and sweet words
cause they all just equate to just words
be scared of relationships
cause nothing last forever
there will always be the one who got away
there will always be the one who got forgotten
the one who's still able to reel you
no matter how far you think you've moved on
the one who shits about you a dozen times
but forgiven in a single apology
the person who circumstances work against
no matter how hard you try to circumvent them
the friend you have to let go
no matter how many forevers you have written
the lover you kiss
despite knowing you are every variation of stupidity
as i grow
i learn that not everyone moves in the same direction
as i do
and as much it hurt and pained me
as much i wish it weren't the case
i have to accept it


i will just stay strong
very strong
and not breakdown

wtf